12 Signs That I May Be Leaving My Current Job

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01) I go to office late. If i'm usually late, then i'll be later than my usual lateness.
02) I take extended lunches. cuz i'm slacking/shopping or i'm at an interview.
03) I tabao lunch back to office, even though i took an extended lunch. cuz my interview overrun.
04) I leave on the precise dot when the minute hand touches the 60th min.
05) I begin to show my unhappiness openly, especially to colleagues' ridiculous demands.
06) I am no longer helpful to my own team-mates.
07) I am no longer willing to take up new tasks.
08) I begin to 'prolong' the life of the project i am doing. no longer the highly efficient me.
09) I begin the surf the net during office hours, to 'prolong' the life of the project. by blogging &/or buying/selling items online via ebay/forums.
10) I no longer bother to make small talk/chitchat with my direct boss.
11) I begin to apply leave more frequently.
12) I will take MC at least once a month, at times up to 2 days per MC.

The enthusiam just slowly seeps out of me. Even though i joined the orgnization with the best intentions, however things may not always turn out the way one wants.

Thus job searching begins, filling me with newfound hope to find a new job and increased desire to leave the current job ASAP.

I really dun wanna be labelled as a job-hopper. Though i know none of my job stints last longer than 2 years. But i just get so easily bored, once there's NO motivation.

Motivation to me is Recognition, Appreciation, and Rewards.
For being a fast learner, hardworking, responsible and also efficient employee.

Yup, that's ME.
The truth, not self-praise.
So i deserve MORE.
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Batam, here i come!!!

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Batam, here i come!!!

Beach resort!
3 hours of shiok spa!
Seafood Dinner! Yummy Italian pizza!
Cheap Toiletries!
Authentic Polo Ralph Lauren Poto Tees!
And not forgetting the Kueh Lapis!

Then if time permits...
Sea-sports!
Cheap hair treatment and mani/pedi!
Cheap movies to watch!
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=( & T.T

someone, help me.... i'm still in office...

pui! pui! pui! no thanks to the farking bloody biatch!!!!

i'm not proud of myself today. i teared in office today, infront of my boss...

no thanks to the bloody biatches and their boss!
no thanks to their unhelpfulness & selfishness!
no thanks to their last minute adhoc request!

i hate it!!!

amnesia or forgetfulness?

Definitions:
1) A loss of memory, especially one brought on by some distressing or shocking experience.
2) Partial or total loss of memory, usually resulting from shock, psychological disturbance, brain injury, or illness.
3) Loss of a large block of interrelated memories; complete or partial loss of memory caused by brain injury, shock, etc.

at times, i do like to curse myself... with amnesia...

honestly, do you not wish that you can totally erase some horrible or upsetting memories in your mind? well, i do.

as i can't turn back time, i can only hope that i can erase those awful &/or embarrassing memories. Not only the memories of how others treated me shabbily, and also on my actions too. i'm no angel, and i've hurt people with my actions unintentionally and deliberately.

It's too late for regrets and what's done can't be undone. And i'm also quite prideful to offer my sincere apologies to them (not all of them though). However, if they know i have amnesia, then they would forgive me, right?! Ok, even if they dun totally forgive me, but there's this chance of starting afresh.

i dun really wan to bother about those who have upset me before. cuz isn't it better to remember a life without these people? let their imprints totally vanished! yes, i'm selfish, i want people to forgive me but yet i refuse to forgive the others.

i wan selective amnesia, can i? not selected forgetfulness.
cuz having amnesia is not a choice we can choose but forgetfulness can be a pure excuse.

brief updates (Jan-Jun) - 1

It's been 7 months since i've updated my blog. My work has been killing me. You should know by now, i only write an entry when i'm at work. perhaps i should just close down the blog, maybe i am just not suited to have a blog.

or perhaps i can just keep everything to myself, since i'm beginning to be rather skillful at it.

*sidetracked*

anyway, in chronological order! however, its not completed yet.. =D


New Year's Eve
Went to Kel's friend's (Christopher) house for a large-scale BBQ, with loads of yummy food and simply too much drinks. Apparently, Christopher's family have a tradition of inviting all family, friends, church friends, etc for a BBQ on NY Eve at their house. So we the friends were supposed to bring an item to the BBQ, not entirely a potluck though. And we ALL BROUGHT ALCOHOLIC DRINKS! how predictable...

There i finally saw the Hello Kitty room (Chrisopher's wife's fave). I call it the Hello Kitty Shrine. Never ever seen so many Hello Kitty stuff in a room, other than shops.

And when i saw the kids' playroom, which occupied the entire attic. How envious i felt, cuz i did not have such a big playroom when i was young. It's basically every kids' dream. =D


Chinese New Year
Watched 3 movies in 2 days. Jay Chou's basketball show with Kel (movie was ok), Ah Long pte ltd (with Von, Vete & their family. that show is totally hilarous!) and CJ7 (with Von, Vete & their family, with some of our friends, and my sisters and cousin Victoria. i cried abit during the movie).

went home to sleep during those 3 days. other than the usual visiting, things were basically the same, i suppose. *shan't think of unhappiness*

oh ya, i won about $150 playing 21. =D 1st time ever, cuz usually i tend to lose $100... kekek

Valentine's Day
Went to Al Forno for dinner. everything was so standardized. thus i dun think i ever wanna have VDay dinner outside again. But no flowers this year though. And yes, i am complaining.

hmm.. ok, now to let myself feel better --> if i had flowers, then things would seem very uniformed, like a cult, right?? dun u agree???

erm, as for pressie, there was no gifts exchange. cuz earlier he went to Chicago (biz trip for 1 week) and got me a Coach bag. A very pleasant surprise cuz he usually is quite against my branded follies and yet he got me this bag in advance for my birthday present. Very advance, if you ask me.

Initially, he had intend to give me the bag on my birthday! Who does that?! And which gal will agree?! however, in the end, he gave it to me the 2nd day he was back in SG. =D

For being so nice to me, i later bought him the 3days pass to the F1 night race, for his belated Vdae present. I'm so easy to humor. =x



******* abit abrupt but i shall cont about other occasions on another day... =D *******

A Little Ruckus

Dear God,

Send me a little ruckus when I need it, to wake me up from stupor.
That I may perceive life with my heart, to live freely today trusting that tomorrow is in Your hands.

"The thief does not come except to steal, and to kill, and to destroy.
I have come that they may have life, and that they may have it more abundantly." John 10:10 NKJV

I pray that I may live this life as You have intended.
To be courageous to love like there is no tomorrow.
That grace and mercy will strengthen me when I fall.
And Your voice will ever be like music to my heart.

Two are better than one, because they have a good reward for their labour. For if they fall, one will lift up his companion.
But woe to him who is alone when he falls, for he has no one to help him up. Again, if two lie down together, they will keep warm;
But how can one be warm alone? Though one may be overpowered by another, two can withstand him.
And a threefold cord is not quickly broken. Ecclesiastes 4:9-12 NKJV

Your child,
Sv ",+

23/06/2008 12:03

Guiding Hands

My first day of recess
They all laughed at me
When I fell off the swing set
And scraped up my knee
The nurse called my Momma
To say I'd be late
And when she gave me the phone
I could hear Momma say
I'm so sorry son
Oh I think you're so brave
And she was smiling when she said

When you come home
No matter how far
Run through the door and into my arms
It's where you are loved
It's where you belong
And I will be here
When you come home


(When you come home written by Mark Schultz)


I was but a newbie when you took me under your wings.
You remained at hand when I was out of the industry, out of a job. Encouraging, connecting, guiding.
When I came to the end of the road, you said, "You can take the dealer out of the market, but you can't take the market out of the dealer."
Your words rekindled the dying flames of belief in my heart. When the same door opened a second time, I resumed my seat at the desk.

Three years and six months on, I move forward with the surety and confidence that dealing is in my blood. The late Ayrton Senna believed that racing was in his blood. He knew what it meant to be one with the car, to live and breathe racing. To be the best that he could be. I read that when he was racing, sometimes he would transcend the physical realm. When he would lose himself behind the steering wheel and be one with the car.

Ma'am, thank you for your guiding hands. You have shown me that it is possible to have a big heart above the materialism and hypocrisy prevalent in the industry. Joshua stayed close to Moses. Paul built up Timothy. Barnabas did not give up on John Mark. And you kept an eye out for this stubborn mule.

Xiao Guo ",+

12/05/2008 07:52